sharknbake

so i nearly died yesterday. a truck burst a tire and nearly ran my car off the road. i was lucky, i had just drove past the truck be4 he veered into my lane. its wierd. i almost feel like things just happenin in a way that it works out 4 me. almost like life is structured so that i stay safe. yet i find time to bitch about how shitty life is (even tho it is lol) and even becuz of that i feel so undeserving. maybe i will serve some purpose in this world such that i need to stay alive. or maybe 2moro i will die like trash on the side of the road. either way lol university starts back on monday n i go back up 2day. i kinda look 4ward to this sem

i feel like shit :( i dunno i cant stop thinkin about her n how she just stopped caring. i kno how i felt when i was in it, and that drove my decision, but i swear, theres sumthin inside of me that just wants to take it all back. i have nothin to live for at this point. i hope i see some light soon. sigh. im just so angry at myself everyday. for the mistakes ive made. i wish things were better but i guess thas not realistic. sigh hopefully 2moro will be better....

feeling good 4 sum reason :D to much trance? (as if theres such a thing) random thoughts go here i guess :S today looks like its gonna be a beautiful day :) dunno why and inspite of the fact that i will be spending it studying, i'm looking forward to it :)its funny how little shit that upsets me get so easily swept away by things like music and also my frens wit dere shit lol iz like the negatives are like a -2 followed by a +13 from the other shit haha good stuff :D hope this feelin keeps up till after exams :D i think thas all i feel like jottin 2day....yeh